Halfway Between the Gutter and the Stars: Thoughts about my ch’i
Thoughts swimming thru my mind after I shut my computer off last night; things are somewhat out of balance, tho not completely, just slightly – like an almost imperceptible sensation of double vision, or like looking at a picture hanging on a wall and feeling that it isn’t quite level. You keep looking at it because you know something isn’t right, and you can’t quite put your finger on exactly what it is.
But you can’t stop looking at it either.
I think this probably has something to do with how my schedule and my husband’s have been running completely opposite from one another for a few weeks now. He’s been working nights for the last month of so, which means that he’s not home at night and that means I spend most of my evenings with my son – when he’s not too busy doing his own thing. This essentially translates to me seeing my son when he gets hungry and wants me to cook him something to eat. So, this means I’ve been spending my free time online – writing, chatting with friends, and reading. And while that’s okay – I feel like I’m spending too much time online, and that’s starting to get to me. It’s like being sucked into this big vacuum called cyberia again – not exactly a desirable place to be.
Yoga night has been put on hold during this schedule swing because I’m not thrilled with the idea of going out and leaving my son home alone to fend for himself. Not that he isn’t old enough – but yoga night usually turns into margarita night and that wouldn’t be cool, so I’ve been doing a lot more daily yoga to try and stay centered – but I miss my husband.
Is it wrong to feel so connected to someone that something as slight and insignificant as a brief schedule change sends me into a complete tizzy? Maybe. But I can’t help that either.
Tho some of my chats have given me some truly amazing moments of inspiration and serendipity – and as soon as I can get my ch’i straightened out, I may actually write about some of them.
I think my ch’i needs some retail therapy, or maybe a latte.
It’s Friday and it’s Mother’s Day weekend! So be good to your mother or the mother of your children!
Enjoy your weekend!
Music today: Swordfish Soundtrack by Paul Oakenfold.
Damn you Ichi! 
Happy 2 days before Mothers Day! xo
I completely understand about how a little schedule change from your significant other can totally jack up everything! It is so hard when things get all knocked around and a different routine has to be found. Night time is an especially tought time to be with out your sweetiepie. In my mind it is the time to start relaxing and being with family. So I can see how the chi would be a little off kilter.
Sending Big hugs and hoping that a another schedule change is in your near future! And I with you the Best Mothers Day!
Kisses,
Steffy